As tears streamed down my face he looked at me and said “i love you mummy, you’re my best friend” and that was all I needed to hear in that moment.
Knowing that this beautiful little person you created is starting to learn the concept of love and affection, especially when it’s needed.
I’ve struggled more as a Mum in the last couple of weeks than I did when the kids were newborns.
I don’t know why but it’s just sucked, everything has.
I’ve lost myself 100%. I don’t know who I am anymore or what I want out of life. I feel like all I am is a Mum who goes to a job all day and then comes home and cleans. The same boring routine day in day out and it sucks – I’m over it. I wanted more out of my life and now I feel selfish for even feeling this way. I make no time for myself and I’ve just lost sight of what makes me happy.
My anxiety is at its peak right now, I am so bleh and I’ve cried so much I’ve given myself headaches.
I am failing my children and right now I am not a good mum.
It’s a bad day, not a bad life – but right now I just want to curl up into a ball and wait for the dark clouds to pass over.